Hello everyone.
I'm just here to share a bit my experience and to listen to yours... beacause I know that it helps a lot sharing our experiences - we feel that we're not the only ones to feel this way...we don't feel so lonely. I'm from Portugal and I have depression since I was 17. It's been 10 years now... it seems to me that I've been like this all of my life. I've had better times, but then it all comes again...the pain, the sadness, the feeling that there's no way out and that life makes no sense... At the present time I'm unemployed and basically I do nothing... my greatest pleasures are eating, sleeping and cuddling with my pets. I love animals... I aim to attain some peace of mind one day... and to love myself more then anything, so that I can help myself and thus help others.
Hope that you share your experiences with me. Thanks,
Eduarda.

oh nice to c u we are alike in deepression. Do u like music depressive aggressive or ambient and how much? i think that the best way to leave this fucking depressions, solitude, sadness, meaningless, painfulness, loneliness is just a suicide

Well, sorry, but I guess you misunderstood me... probably bacause of the title of my text "Who has never wished to be dead?" - I bet many people have already thought about that, but I don't agree that suicide is the only solution!!! Actually I'm shocked with your reply, 'cause you seem to be encouraging other people who suffer to commit suicide, that's terrible!!! If you feel bad feel free to talk to me and other people, but please don't say that suicide is the only way. I've been very down, sometimes I'm better other times I go back down again and have very negative thoughts, but I don't wish to anybody, not anybody what I feel, what I have felt already... As for agressive music, I don't appreciate much, however the depressive kind, yeah, sometimes, it depends on the mood - I like Portishead, Radiohead, Massive Attack, soft metal only, a bit of grunge, drum'n'nbass, trip hop, but mostly "normal" stuff like pop, rock, blues, R&B, etc.
Try to cheer up a bit and if you need, just talk ;)

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oh nice to c u we are alike in deepression. Do u like music depressive aggressive or ambient and how much? i think that the best way to leave this fucking depressions, solitude, sadness, meaningless, painfulness, loneliness is just a suicide

hey peoples views on how they deal with their depression is their deal.... whether its by suicide, listening to music, or what have you. I have suffered from severe depression for a very long time i got to the point where i had to be strapped down to my bed at night because people thought that not only was i going to kill my self but other people too. and to be honest.... i probably would have... i am an angry person, then adding severe depression on top of that.... i didnt care who i hurt.... but thats how the world goes round right? my music didnt have anything to do with what i felt... because it could not describe it. nothing could

"hey peoples views on how they deal with their depression is their deal.... whether its by suicide"

Of course it is but does that mean that those of us who know better should not share their experience with those who believe suicide is the only way. It isn't. I've been there. I know how it feels to be depressed, suicidal, and all of the drama that goes with it. I know. Now Instead of being dead, I'm enjoying life because I have found out just how amazing life is. Those who have choisen to die miss out on that..


"i am an angry person, then adding severe depression on top of that.... i didnt care who i hurt.... but thats how the world goes round right?"

No. That's how you have chosen your world to be. If you deny that, you deny your own Power. And people with depression often do that - they deny their power and use words like "that's life". It isn't. It's the way you make it.

Hi to everyone!
I used to feel the same way for a long time, especially in my teens.I have also thought about suicide but never made an effort, I don't know why. Maybe I hadn't the courage or I just didn't want it really... Anyway now I overcome this terrible feeling and I'm really gloud about it.
Guys, if u feel that life makes no sense, then give your life a sense by something useful u do. Everybody has a talent or enjoys to do something... That's the best solution, it's fulish to think about suicide. People who really have no reason to life just do it and don't think about it.If u think about it, it is a sign that u want to live but u just haven't found the right way. Keep trying...